Anxiety, Depression, Social Phobia, Panic Attacks

I came across a website that helps me get over with the inconveniences of life.

If you are depressed, does not want to talk to people, suffers from anxiety, and could not decide on various pressures of your lives, check this website http://antianxietys.com

Life is hard in the Philippines because of bad politics, poor security, and rising cost of basic commodities.
try to relax, read, and purchase some of the products there if you like.

Check it out and hope you get better, and don't think too much about the problems of life...we all have problems, if you know mine, i could say, it all started when I was born...

Suicidal tendencies

I watched a lot and been immersed in Japanese culture.

Accepting defeat for them is as good as being killed.

Imagine if my country Philippines will be like that, then we will be able to prosper. It only these times when recession and problems about money came to surface thats the only time they see reality.

Life is hard, you have to work, pay your bills, and work more harder. With that, you have to please other people too. Smiling at them always and all, just to be with them.

Here is a more sad part. You bring kindness to others and they fuck you up in return. If you give kindness you should expect kindness to be returned right?

Philippines is like that. Filipinos are like that. So be careful if you set foot to our country. Only few people will treat you with utmost kindness. The rest just want to get a quick buck.

Look at the politicians, look at those rich capitalists? don't you see?

Sometimes I just want to die.

Why do I have this country anyway, why should I own this? its not my problem right?
I have helped my countrymen already, why they treat me like shit? Why do I have to hide it from them? I want some respect too... the only respect I get is I have power and money. If I have none of these, NOTHING!

I have tried suicide once, I have it ready on my table. Guns, poison, heights, you name it.

But then again, if I die, who will take care of the country? I can't leave it to other family members, they are old. And my sisters, they will just fuck more of it.

I'll have just to bear with it.

Life goes on, for me and for everyone. even though how hard it is. Money or no money, no love or not, we have to keep going.

Treasure life.

I don't know if I continue, especially if there are those bad people who abuse your kindness....

Women ????

Women ????
Bloggel No. -1 (please be adviced, some mature content is here, ill try to censor myself dont worry).

You remember my earlier post that my G3G and his partners paid back the Philippines for $ 30 M + ????. Well maybe you know the answer. The ???? =  women.

My G3G is against it at first. But I do hate them. From my old generation up to now. That women here in the Philippines are not treated fairly, because of money. During that time when the Americans came to discuss the agreement between my G3G and others, they were drunk and all. And one of the server maids tried to serve them alcoholic drinks, and one US government official grabbed her.

"You know guys, if you give me this fine piece of p*ssy, I will give you more money."

My greedy G3G and the rest agreed. Now, the meeting, in a government owned place, became a whorehouse. Some of the organization even called their own daughters to be part of this. This is to ensure that they have a good future in the US and to provide them more money. They were the ultimate sacrifice for their own future security.

I tell you, 50 women, 50 beautiful Filipinas, gave their bodies to the greedy society which they live in.
Such a shame. Anyone can be changed because of money. But I do pity them, as they will not enjoy the true love and care of a man who will make love to them. Some of the women went to the US together with American officials, on which, they became sex slaves, toilet cleaners and baby sitters for life, some are tortured and abused. maybe some were lucky too. Well, those are in the 1900's no one will surely know what they have done on those days.

Filipinas are thoughtful, caring, and wise. They will surely take care of you. Although some are bad motherf*ckers who even put drugs on their babies while begging for alms. Filipina women are strong and resilient. That is why Westerners like them. As my father said, well, it serves the purpose - I want a good wife. I can f*ck her and let her cook/serve my meal and I give her some allowance. Caucasians are more expensive if they do the same thing.

Once my G3 grandmother knew about my G3G's doing. She left him. She re-married again to a Chinese businessman. Now, our life is becoming more complex.